"Boredom is rage spread thin." -Paul Tillich
I hate having episodes.
There is nothing I want to do but curl up in bed. Everything around me is in topsy-turvy. A lot of commotion everywhere. But I am battling my own turmoil inside.
I was trying to find some adequate reason for this detachment that I am feeling and what Tillich said seemed to make perfect sense. My boredom is my rage within. Something which I could not do anything about.
And yet, it is eating me alive.
It is easy to say that it's okay. I feel fine. I thought I was fine. But there is this stupid nagging feeling of guilt and what-ifs and what-nots which prevent me to do my normal routine.
I feel stuck and numb and... empty.
I am in another kind of black hole.
Again.
xx,
Corporate Junkie
I hate having episodes.
There is nothing I want to do but curl up in bed. Everything around me is in topsy-turvy. A lot of commotion everywhere. But I am battling my own turmoil inside.
I was trying to find some adequate reason for this detachment that I am feeling and what Tillich said seemed to make perfect sense. My boredom is my rage within. Something which I could not do anything about.
And yet, it is eating me alive.
It is easy to say that it's okay. I feel fine. I thought I was fine. But there is this stupid nagging feeling of guilt and what-ifs and what-nots which prevent me to do my normal routine.
I feel stuck and numb and... empty.
I am in another kind of black hole.
Again.
xx,
Corporate Junkie
