“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” -Jim Morrison
Sometimes, things happen which make you realize that you are alive and everything is not a candy-coated paradise as you thought they were -- that not all things appear as if they were in a fairy tale; that it is not always a happy ever after.
When people you love hurt you, may they be a friend or family, it drills down deep to the core. You try to keep it inside the recesses of your heart, thinking that your "unconditional love" can overcome the hurt. You feel that you have no choice but to resort to some wishful thinking that they do not put you in that black hole ever again.
But how much pain can one withstand? How do you even begin quantifying it?
The answers to these questions elude me. A friend once told me, deal with it or die with it. But how do you deal with it? Throw it over your shoulder? Stand up and scream out what you feel? What could be a better option?
If you just keep mum, it is most likely that people who have hurt you will trample on you, over and over again. If you scream out and stand up for what you feel, what would it cost you? Or would you rather turn away and forget about it and live with ignorance. As some say, it is bliss, after all.
Sigh! How complicated life is!
While it is in living that you feel pain, what is it worth? And in what propensity will it change you?
xx,
Corporate Junkie
