"Bipolar disorder is a condition in which people experience intermittent abnormally elevated (manic or hypomanic) and, in many cases, abnormally depressed states for periods of time in a way that interferes with functioning." - Check Wiki link here.
So I have opened up to my husband some years ago that I may have bipolar disorder and just tonight, that topic just reappeared out of the blue. It got me thinking.
I have always suspected that I have this disorder. If you can browse through my blog, there are moments of "elevation" but most of the time, the "episodes" do not go away for a consistently longer period of time. I was trying to also revisit an old blog and most of the content has been nothing but eeyoric (the term I use in reference to Eeyore of Winnie the Pooh cartoons who has a dark cloud looming over his head).
So I took the liberty of doing some internet research and came across this site -- http://www.psymed.info. Interesting findings. Technically disconcerting.
On the Major Depression Inventory Test which I answered twice (first time, an introspection, the second time, the husband answered for me), I got a very high score of 33 which diagnosed me as SEVERELY DEPRESSED. Next step is to "consult a mental healthcare professional for possible treatment."
Hmm. Do I? Get treatment, I mean?
I do not think that my depressive episodes are actually harmful to me. I do not have suicidal tendencies. It just bothers me because it might be bothersome for others around me.
Oohhh well. Just to quote my favorite rag toy -- "We can't all, and some of us don't. That's all there is to it."
Ooohh, Eeyore!
P.S. - The tests in www.psymed.info are actually cool. I tested my husband on his narcissistic tendencies, and despite my slight objection, he is in the normal range. Drats!
