"All sickness can be used for a greater purpose. Perhaps it's to bring you closer to God. Perhaps it's to bring you closer to your family. Perhaps it's your path to inner peace. If you're sick right now, I urge you to listen to God speaking through your soul. Perhaps there's a message in your sickness. Once you hear the message, do it. If you're sick right now, fill your life with love. Receive love. And give love." - Bo Sanchez, God Is Bigger Than Your Biggest Problems
I have always wanted a long vacation.
Right after I graduated in '05, I started work immediately and then, there has been no resting after that. Stephen Covey, once said, that it is good for a man to sharpen the saw. Revitalize. Preserve your greatest asset -- you. Nice thought. Hard to really put it into action.
I am Corporate Junkie for a reason. I love my work - sometimes, too much. I was reading The Complete Idiot's Guide to Beating Stress last night and it has identified me as a Type A stress type. According to the book, what is a Type A behavior?
Type As:
- Try to accomplish too many things in too short a span of time
- Are irritated by trivial things
- Are impatient with other who do not function as they do
- Are easily angered when they feel their goals are thwarted by other people
- Prefer to work alone or be in charge so that have total control
- Resent ever being told what to do, or being given suggestions
- Work even faster than usual when deadlines and pressure are involved
- Are "combat-ready," reacting with aggression when they feel threatened
- Are cynical and mistrustful about other people's motives
- Can increase their susceptibility to physical ailments by smoking cigarettes and drinking a large number of caffeinated drinks
- Get less sleep because they are busy burning the candle at both ends so that they can accomplish more
- Have been associated with a number of illnesses -- including colds, headaches and stomach disorders
There you go, home run! It is not my work. It is not my environment. It is me. I always have this aggression -- an ambition to always push myself further, higher, better.
This realization hit me last night like bulls-eye. I am technically forced to rest. I may not want to and I am already going bonkers staying at home for more than a week (It has been just 10 days!!!) but I think, this is what I need to do. Just slow down. Just for a while.
To give time for my body to heal, inside and outside.Not just because of my miscarriage but for all the stress that probably have accumulated in my body for the past years.
This "time" is also giving me an opportunity to be a better wife, once and for all. To cook dinner for my husband. To fix the house. To text family and friends.
They say God works in mysterious ways. And while some of those ways pose themselves as very painful experiences, I believe that there is a higher purpose to all this.
"God won't protect you from all pain. But He will allow you to experience pain that can turn into a great blessing." - Bo Sanchez
So be it, Father.
xx,
Corporate Junkie
