Decision. Indecision.

"There is always a right moment to act." - Aleph, Paulo Coelho

The month of March in my Paulo Coelho Day Planner is all dedicated to decision or making decisions, for that matter. Funny because it seems to be a very apt moment for me to be lectured on these things. 

I always believe in being at the right moment at the right time and somehow, this is another manifestation of it. In my life, there are decisions that I have been postponing to do. For what reason? I do not know. Maybe because of fear. Fear of regret or fear of not being able to stand by what I have decided upon; or simply because I linger in the idea that 

everything works out well in the end anyway and I do not really need to rush anything. 

But once again, as if directly talking to me, I would like to share these snippets in my Coelho planner which seem to have all the answers to my questions -- 

The warrior allows the decision to reveal itself. If he has to say "yes", he will say it bravely. If he has to say "no", he will say it without a trace of cowardice. -Warrior of the Light: A Manual

We are not the person other people wish we were. We are who we decide to be. -Aleph

Fear is understandable until the inevitable happens. But from then on, it loses all meaning. And what remains is the hope that we made the right decision. -The Fifth Mountain

I believe in signs. I believe in fate. I believe that every single day people are offered the chance to make the best possible decision about everything they do. A warrior does not succumb to fear when he goes in search of what he needs. Without love he is nothing. -Chronicle: A Warrior of the Light and His Life

The more I re-read all these things make me realize that decision-making is inevitable. That there will always be crossroads in my life and I need to choose the road I should take. And the path I take will define who I am and where I want to be.

In less than four months, I will be entering a new life. A new life of commitment and dedication. I know that I will be happy. Because at that right moment and right here, right now, I have decided. I have decided to enter a commitment in front of the Church and the State and the world to the one person who I have already accepted wholeheartedly and who did the same for me. 

This is a decision that will change my life. A decision I am reaffirming now without a trace of doubt or cowardice. People say that it is admirable for couples who stay together without having to prove love with a piece of legal document. As much as I respect that view and admire those people as well (take Johnny Depp for example), I think it is also another leap of faith to materialize an intangible thing because you know that you will stand by a decision no matter what the future brings.

Lord, protect our decisions, because coming to a decision is a way of praying. Give us courage so that, despite our doubts, we can choose between one path and another. -Chronicle: The Prayer I Forgot, Paulo Coelho

xx, 

Corporate Junkie