Being alive means you are on a relentless expedition of highs and lows, laughter and sadness. The wheel of life just won't stop turning. How we wish that at a certain point in time, in ecstacy, in elation, everything just freeze in mid-air and we never leave that moment... EVER. We wish. We wish, indeed.
You hear this all the time -- the world is round, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. You would often ponder how some people seem to always just be on the greener side. How does that happen? How do they freeze their "luck"?
The answer is they don't. They are just good at projecting their happiness than you. You never know what happens behind closed doors, inside their houses, deep in their hearts, deep in their minds.
Going through this 365 Days of Happy was tough. It was a self-imposition of forcing myself to see happiness in the little things in my life. It was self-serving, actually. I made it a project because I wanted to make myself see the brighter side of things. To prove that I can be happy everyday.
I am already nearing my 100th day of happy. But I don't consider each day a happy day. Sometimes, I struggle. You see that there are times when I do some back posts -- it means I am not in the mood to write, I am deadpan tired or I just haven't figured out a significant thing that made me happy. So I try to dissect my day. I may have a bad day but there is always that specific moment in the day that somehow made me happy.
And then, it struck me. Maybe I should stop being happy. I seem to struggle sometimes finding a moment that I am happy because there are really awful days. On the other hand, I could never run out of things to be grateful for. There could be days that I may not be happy in the same intensity as the others; heck, I may even have a bad day. But nevertheless, there is always a reason to be grateful. A fulfilling work. A work that is aligned with your personal vision. A nice boss. A lovely meal by the husband. No traffic. An empty parking slot. A cold shower after a hot day.
Hmm, now this is something. Despite its detour, I am glad that this project is now wheeled into its rightful, should I say, more appropriate, better and hopefully, a more fulfilling destination. The Attitude of Gratitude. I like it!
I am grateful for this realization. Now, I am all psyched. Gratitude vs Happiness. I think people who are grateful are happy but people who are happy might not be necessary grateful.
What do you think, loves?
