I question my faith all the time. During the times when my prayers go unanswered, I start to question myself and the Divine, Why?
Resentment comes with this questioning, at certain times, it is coupled with doubt. This is a bad combination. This is where I was, as of late.
So I knew that I badly needed guidance. I asked the husband to accompany me to The Feast after seeing the topic for the week --
I am glad I came. The homily struck some strings: not to put God to test and not to let the Devil tempt us on the dire moments in our life. We only see the "now". That's all that we see. But He sees everything and He is planning a better outcome that could be unexplainable by our current circumstance.
Shameful and humbling but this day is a story of reconciliation. I need to reconcile with Him because I have been feeling awry and resentful these past few days. But after all the little miracles that He did in my life last year, how could I doubt that there is indeed a plan? A better plan? How could I forget?
So, I am happy today because I have been slapped with the reality of my ungrounded doubt. I could not be the Doubting Thomas. Nope, not after all I have been through and not with this good life that He has given me.
So, today, thank you Lord for once again taking me in Your bosom.
xx,
Corporate Junkie
